alone；withoutwomentolovethem；withoutchildrentosoftenthem；andwithoutgodtomakethemthinkofheaven；alwaysturnintowildbeasts；yousee；soonemorningtheeldestson；whohadbeendrinkingtoomuchbrandy；wouldnotharnesstheplow…horses；hisfatherstruckhimwithhiswhip；andtheson；whowasmaddrunk；shothimdeadwithhisgun。〃
16th；p。m鈥斺�攊havebeenthinkingofthestoryoftheoldcashierthesetwodays；itcamesoopportunelyuponthereflectionsmydreamhadsuggestedtome。
haveinotanimportantlessontolearnfromallthis？
ifoursensationshaveanincontestableinfluenceuponourjudgments；howesitthatwearesolittlecarefulofthosethingswhichawakenormodifythesesensations？theexternalworldisalwaysreflectedinusasinamirror；andfillsourmindswithpictureswhich；unconsciouslytoourselves；beethegermsofouropinionsandofourrulesofconduct。
alltheobjectswhichsurroundusarethen；inreality；somanytalismanswhencegoodandevilinfluencesareemitted；anditisforustochoosethemwisely；soastocreateahealthyatmosphereforourminds。
feelingconvincedofthistruth；isetaboutmakingasurveyofmyattic。
thefirstobjectonwhichmyeyesrestisanoldmapofthehistoryoftheprincipalmonasteryinmynativeprovince。ihadunrolleditwithmuchsatisfaction；andplaceditonthemostconspicuouspartofthewall。whyhadigivenitthisplace？oughtthissheetofoldworm…eatenparchmenttobeofsomuchvaluetome；whoamneitheranantiquarynorascholar？isnotitsrealimportanceinmysightthatoneoftheabbotswhofoundeditboremyname；andthatishall；perchance；beabletomakemyselfagenealogicaltreeofitfortheedificationofmyvisitors？
whilewritingthis；ifeelmyownblushese；downwiththemap！
letusbanishitintomydeepestdrawer。
asipassedmyglass；iperceivedseveralvisitingcardsplacentlydisplayedintheframe。bywhatchanceisitthatthereareonlynamesthatmakeashowamongthem？hereisapolishcount鈥斺�攁retiredcolonel鈥斺�攖hedeputyofmydepartment。quick；quick；intothefirewiththeseproofsofvanity！andletusputthiscardinthehandwritingofouroffice…boy；thisdirectionforcheapdinners；andthereceiptofthebrokerwhereiboughtmylastarmchair；intheirplace。theseindicationsofmypovertywillserve；asmontaignesays；matermasuperbe；andwillalwaysmakemerecollectthemodestyinwhichthedignityofthelowlyconsists。
ihavestoppedbeforetheprintshanginguponthewall。thislargeandsmilingpomona；seatedonsheavesofcorn；andwhosebasketisoverflowingwithfruit；onlyproducesthoughtsofjoyandplenty；iwaslookingathertheotherday；whenifellasleepdenyingsuchathingasmisery。letusgiveheraspanionthispictureofwinter；inwhicheverythingtellsofsorrowandsuffering：onepicturewillmodifytheother。
andthishappyfamilyofgreuzes！whatjoyinthechildrenseyes！
whatsweetreposeintheyoungwomansface！whatreligiousfeelinginthegrandfatherscountenance！maygodpreservetheirhappinesstothem！
butletushangbyitssidethepictureofthismother；whoweepsoveranemptycradle。humanlifehastwofaces；bothofwhichwemustdaretocontemplateintheirturn。
letmehide；too；theseridiculousmonsterswhichornamentmychimneypiece。platohassaidthat〃thebeautifulisnothingelsethanthevisibleformofthegood。〃ifitisso；theuglyshouldbethevisibleformoftheevil；and；byconstantlybeholdingit；themindinsensiblydeteriorates。
butaboveall；inordertocherishthefeelingsofkindnessandpity；letmehangatthefootofmybedthisaffectingpictureofthelastsleep！
neverhaveibeenabletolookatitwithoutfeelingmyhearttouched。
anoldwoman；clothedinrags；islyingbyaroadside；herstickisatherfeet；andherheadrestsuponastone；shehasfallenasleep；herhandsareclasped；murmuringaprayerofherchildhood；shesleepsherlastsleep；shedreamsherlastdream！
sheseesherself；againastrongandhappychild；keepingthesheeponthemon；gatheringtheberriesfromthehedges；singing；curtsyingtopassers…by；andmakingthesignofthecrosswhenthefirststarappearsintheheavens！happytime；filledwithfragranceandsunshine！shewantsnothingyet；forsheisignorantofwhatthereistowishfor。
butseehergrownup；thetimeiseforworkingbravely：shemustcutthecorn；threshthewheat；carrythebundlesoffloweringcloverorbranchesofwitheredleavestothefarm。ifhertoilishard；hopeshineslikeasunovereverythinganditwipesthedropsofsweataway。
thegrowinggirlalreadyseesthatlifeisatask；butshestillsingsasshefulfillsit。
by…and…byetheburdenbeesheavier；sheisawife；sheisamother！
shemusteconomizethebreadofto…day；havehereyeuponthemorrow；takecareofthesick；andsustainthefeeble；shemustact；inshort；thatpartofanearthlyprovidence；soeasywhengodgivesushisaid；sohardwhenheforsakesus。sheisstillstrong；butsheisanxious；shesingsnolonger！
yetafewyears；andallisovercast。thehusbandshealthisbroken；hiswifeseeshimpineawaybythenowfirelesshearth；coldandhungerfinishwhatsicknesshadbegun；hedies；andhiswidowsitsonthegroundbythecoffinprovidedbythecharityofothers；pressinghertwohalf…nakedlittleonesinherarms。shedreadsthefuture；sheweeps；andshedroopsherhead。
atlastthefuturehase；thechildrenaregrownup；buttheyarenolongerwithher。hersonisfightingunderhiscountrysflag；andhissisterisgone。bothhavebeenlosttoherforalongtime鈥斺�攑erhapsforever；andthestronggirl；thebravewife；thecourageousmother；ishenceforthonlyapooroldbeggar…woman；withoutafamily；andwithoutahome！sheweepsnomore；sorrowhassubduedher；shesurrenders；andwaitsfordeath。
death；thatfaithfulfriendofthewretched；ise：nothideousandwithmockery；assuperstitionrepresents；butbeautiful；smiling；andcrownedwithstars！thegentlephantomstoopstothebeggar；itspalelipsmurmurafewairywords；whichannouncetohertheendofherlabors；apeacefuljoyesovertheagedbeggarwoman；and；leaningontheshoulderofthegreatdeliverer；shehaspassedunconsciouslyfromherlastearthlysleeptohereternalrest。
liethere；thoupoorway…weariedwoman！theleaveswillservetheeforawinding…sheet。nightwillshedhertearsofdewoverthee；andthebirdswillsingsweetlybythyremains。thyvisitherebelowwillnothaveleftmoretracethantheirflightthroughtheair；thynameisalreadyforgotten；andtheonlylegacythouhasttoleaveisthehawthornsticklyingforgottenatthyfeet！
well！someonewilltakeitup鈥斺�攕omesoldierofthatgreathumanhostwhichisscatteredabroadbymiseryorbyvice；forthouartnotanexception；thouartaninstance；andunderthesamesunwhichshinessopleasantlyuponall；inthemidstofthesefloweringvineyards；thisripecorn；andthesewealthycities；entiregenerationssuffer；succeedeachother；andstillbequeathtoeachthebeggarsstick！
thesightofthissadpictureshallmakememoregratefulforwhatgodhasgivenme；andmorepassionateforthosewhomhehastreatedwithlessindulgence；itshallbealessonandasubjectforreflectionforme。
ah！ifwewouldwatchforeverythingthatmightimproveandinstructus；ifthearrangementsofourdailylifeweresodisposedastobeaconstantschoolforourminds！butoftenestwetakenoheedofthem。
manisaneternalmysterytohimself；hisownpersonisahouseintowhichheneverenters；andofwhichhestudiestheoutsidealone。eachofusneedhavecontinuallybeforehimthefamousinscriptionwhichonceinstructedsocrates；andwhichwasengravedonthewallsofdelphibyanunknownhand：
knowthyself。
CHAPTER XII
theendoftheyear
december30th；p。m。
iwasinbed；andhardlyrecoveredfromthedeliriousfeverwhichhadkeptmeforsolongbetweenlifeanddeath。myweakenedbrainwasmakingeffortstorecoveritsactivity；mythoughts；likeraysoflightstrugglingthroughtheclouds；werestillconfusedandimperfect；attimesifeltareturnofthedizzinesswhichmadeachaosofallmyideas；andifloated；sotospeak；betweenalternatefitsofmentalwanderingandconsciousness。
sometimeseverythingseemedplaint