standing next to her snickered； and I felt my face turn bright
red。
“Of course。 I’ll be right back。” I fetched the water； which
she accepted without a thank…you； and made my way through the
thinning crowd to the car。 I considered finding Christian’s
parents to thank them but thought better of it and headed
straight toward the door； where he was leaning up against the
frame with a smugly satisfied expression。
“So； little Andy； did I show you a good time tonight？” he
slurred just a little bit； and it seemed nothing short of
adorable at that moment。
“It was all right； I suppose。”
“Just all right？ Sounds to me like you wish I would’ve taken
you upstairs tonight； huh； Andy？ All in good time； my friend；
all in good time。”
I smacked him playfully on the forearm。 “Don’t flatter
yourself； Christian。 Thank your parents for me。” And； for
once； I leaned over first and kissed him on the cheek before
he could do anything else。 “G’night。”
“A tease！” he called； slurring just a little bit more。 “You’re
quite the little tease。 Bet your boyfriend loves that about
you； doesn’t he？” He was smiling now； and not cruelly。 It was
all part of the flirty game for him； but the reference to Alex
sobered me for a minute。 Just long enough to realize that I’d
had a better time tonight than I could remember having had in
many years。 The drinking and the close dancing and his hands
on my back as he pulled me against him had made me feel more
alive than in all the months since I’d been working atRunway；
months that had been filled with nothing but frustration and
humiliation and a body…numbing exhaustion。 Maybe this was why
Lily did it； I thought。 The guys； the partying； the sheer joy
of realizing you’re young and breathing。 I couldn’t wait to
call and tell her all about it。
Miranda joined me in the backseat of the limo after another
five minutes； and she even appeared to be somewhat happy。 I
wondered if she’d gotten drunk but ruled that out immediately：
the most I’d ever seen her drink was a sip of this or that；
and then only because a social situation demanded it。 She
preferred Perrier or Pellegrino to champagne and certainly a
milkshake or a latte to a cosmo； so the chances she was
actually drunk right now were slim。
After grilling me about the following day’s itinerary for the
first five minutes （luckily I’d thought to tuck a copy in my
bag）； she turned and looked at me for the first time all
evening。
“Emily—er； Ahn…dre…ah； how long have you been working for me？”
It came out of left field； and my mind couldn’t work fast
enough to figure out the ulterior motive for this sudden
question。 It felt strange to be the object of any question of
hers that wasn’t explicitly asking why I was such a fucking
idiot for not finding； fetching； or faxing something fast
enough。 She’d never actually asked about my life before。
Unless she remembered the details of our hiring interview—and
it seemed unlikely； considering she’d stared at me with
utterly blank eyes my very first day of work—then she had no
idea where； if anywhere； I’d attended college； where； if
anywhere； I lived in Manhattan； or what； if anything； I did in
the city in the few precious hours a day I wasn’t racing
around for her。 And although this question most certainly did
have a Miranda element to it； my intuition said that this
might； just maybe； be a conversation about me。
“Next month it will be a year； Miranda。”
“And do you feel you’ve learned a few things that may help you
in your future？” She peered at me； and I instantly suppressed
the urge to start rattling off the myriad things I’d
“learned”： how to find a single store or restaurant review in
a whole city or out of a dozen newspapers with few to no clues
about its genuine origin； how to pander to preteenage girls
who’d already had more life experiences than both my parents
bined； how to plead with； scream at； persuade； cry to；
pressure； cajole； or charm anyone； from the immigrant food
delivery guy to the editor in chief of a major publishing
house to get exactly what I needed； when I needed it； and； of
course； how to plete just about any challenge in under an
hour because the phrase “I’m not sure how” or “that’s not
possible” was simply not an option。 It had been nothing if not
a learning…rich year。
“Oh； of course；” I gushed。 “I’ve learned more in one year
working for you than I could’ve hoped to have learned in any
other job。 It’s been fascinating； really； seeing how a
major—themajor—magazine runs； the production cycle； what all
the different jobs are。 And； of course； being able to observe
the way you manage everything； all the decisions you make—it’s
been an amazing year。 I’m so thankful； Miranda！” So thankful
that two of my molars had been aching for weeks； too； but I
wasn’t ever able to get in to see a dentist during working
hours； but whatever。 My newfound； intimate knowledge of Jimmy
Choo’s handicraft had been well worth the pain。
Could this possibly sound believable？ I stole a glance； and
she seemed to be buying it； nodding her head gravely。 “Well；
you know； Ahn…dre…ah； that if ah…fter a year my girls have
performed well； I consider them ready for a promotion。”
My heart surged。 Was it finally happening？ Was this where she
told me that she’d already gone ahead and secured a job for me
atThe New Yorker ？ Never mind that she had no idea I would
kill to work there。 Maybe she had just figured it out because
she cares。
“I have my doubts about you； of course。 Don’t think I haven’t
noticed your lack of enthusiasm； or those sighs or faces you
make when I ask you to do something that you quite obviously
don’t feel like doing。 I’m hoping that’s just a sign of your
immaturity； since you do seem reasonably petent in other
areas。 What exactly are you interested in doing？”
Reasonably petent！ She may as well have announced I was the
most intelligent； sophisticated； gorgeous； and capable young
woman she’d ever had the pleasure of meeting。 Miranda Priestly
had just told me I was reasonably petent！
“Well； actually； it’s not that I don’t love fashion； because
of course I do。 Who wouldn’t？” I rushed on to say； keeping a
careful appraisal of her expression； which； as usual； remained
mostly unchanged。 “It’s just that I’ve always dreamt of
being a writer； so I was hoping that might； uh； be an area
I could explore。”
She folded her hands in her lap and glanced out the window。 It
was clear that this forty…five…second conversation was already
beginning to bore her； so I had to move quickly