moment； I almost did tell him。 Almost told him everything； but then what would he think of me？ He d hate me； and rightfully。
Here。 He handed me something。 I almost forgot。 Happy birthday。 It was a brown leather…bound notebook。 I traced my fingers along the gold…colored stitching on the borders。 I smelled the
leather。 For your stories； he said。 I was going to thank him when something exploded and bursts of fire lit up the sky。
Fireworks！
We hurried back to the house and found the guests all standing in the yard； looking up to the sky。 Kids hooted and screamed with each crackle and whoosh。 People cheered； burst into applause each time flares sizzled and exploded into bouquets of fire。 Every few seconds； the backyard lit up in sudden flashes of red； green； and yellow。
In one of those brief bursts of light； I saw something I ll never forget： Hassan serving drinks to Assef and Wali from a silver platter。 The light winked out； a hiss and a crackle； then another flicker of orange light： Assef grinning； kneading Hassan in the chest with a knuckle。
Then； mercifully； darkness。
NINE
Sitting in the middle of my room the next morning； I ripped open box after box of presents。 I don t know why I even bothered； since I just gave them a joyless glance and pitched them to the corner of the room。 The pile was growing there： a Polaroid camera； a transistor radio； an elaborate electric train set……and several sealed envelopes containing cash。 I knew I d never spend the money or listen to the radio； and the electric train would never trundle down its tracks in my room。 I didn t want any of it……it was all blood money； Baba would have never thrown me a party like that if I hadn t won the tournament。
Baba gave me two presents。 One was sure to bee the envy of every kid in the neighborhood： a brand new Schwinn Stingray； the king of all bicycles。 Only a handful of kids in all of Kabul owned a new Stingray and now I was one of them。 It had high…rise handlebars with black rubber grips and its famous banana seat。 The spokes were gold colored and the steel…frame body red； like a candy apple。 Or blood。 Any other kid would have hopped on the bike immediately and taken it for a full block skid。 I might have done the same a few months ago。
You like it？ Baba said； leaning in the doorway to my room。 I gave him a sheepish grin and a quick Thank you。 I wished I could have mustered more。
We could go for a ride； Baba said。 An invitation； but only a halfhearted one。
Maybe later。 I m a little tired； I said。
Sure； Baba said。
Baba？
Yes？
Thanks for the fireworks； I said。 A thank…you； but only a halfhearted one。
Get some rest； Baba said； walking toward his room。
The other present Baba gave me……and he didn t wait around for me to open this one……was a wristwatch。 It had a blue face with gold hands in the shape of lightning bolts。 I didn t even try it on。 I tossed it on the pile of toys in the corner。 The only gift I didn t toss on that mound was Rahim Khan s leather…bound notebook。 That was the only one that didn t feel like blood money。
I sat on the edge of my bed； turned the notebook in my hands； thought about what Rahim Khan had said about Homaira； how his father s dismissing her had been for the best in the end。 She would have suffered。 Like the times Kaka Homayoun s projector got stuck on the same slide； the same image kept flashing in my mind over and over： Hassan； his head downcast； serving drinks to Assef and Wali。 Maybe it would be for the best。 Lessen his suffering。 And mine too。 Either way； this much had bee clear： One of us had to go。
Later that afternoon； I t