； Hassan jan。 No one is going to live in them； I said。
But he would not。 He said it was a matter of ihtiram； a matter of respect。 He and Farzana moved their things into the hut in the backyard； where he was born。 I pleaded for them to move into one of the guest bedrooms upstairs； but Hassan would hear nothing of it。 What will Amir agha think？ he said to me。 What will he think when he es back to Kabul after the war and finds that I have assumed his place in the house？ Then； in mourning for your father； Hassan wore black for the next forty days。
I did not want them to； but the two of them did all the cooking； all the cleaning。 Hassan tended to the flowers in the garden； soaked the roots； picked off yellowing leaves； and planted rosebushes。 He painted the walls。 In the house； he swept rooms no one had slept in for years； and cleaned bathrooms no one had bathed in。 Like he was preparing the house for someone s return。 Do you remember the wall behind the row of corn your father had planted； Amir jan？ What did you and Hassan call it； the Wall of Ailing Corn ？ A rocket destroyed a whole section of that wall in the middle of the night early that fall。 Hassan rebuilt the wall with his own hands； brick by brick； until it stood whole again。 I do not know what I would have done if he had not been there。 Then late that fall； Farzana gave birth to a stillborn baby girl。 Hassan kissed the baby s lifeless face； and we buried her in the backyard； near the sweetbrier bushes。 We covered the little mound with leaves from the poplar trees。 I said a prayer for her。 Farzana stayed in the hut all day and wailed……it is a heartbreaking sound； Amir jan； the wailing of a mother。 I pray to Allah you never hear it。
Outside the walls of that house； there was a war raging。 But the three of us； in your father s house； we made our own little haven from it。 My vision started going by the late 1980s； so I had Hassan read me your mother s books。 We would sit in the foyer； by the stove； and Hassan would read me from _Masnawi_ or _Khayy醡_； as Farzana cooked in the kitchen。 And every morning； Hassan placed a flower on the little mound by the sweetbrier bushes。
In early 1990； Farzana became pregnant again。 It was that same year； in the middle of the summer； that a woman covered in a sky blue burqa knocked on the front gates one morning。 When I walked up to the gates； she was swaying on her feet； like she was too weak to even stand。 I asked her what she wanted； but she would not answer。
Who are you？ I said。 But she just collapsed right there in the driveway。 I yelled for Hassan and he helped me carry her into the house； to the living room。 We lay her on the sofa and took off her burqa。 Beneath it； we found a toothless woman with stringy graying hair and sores on her arms。 She looked like she had not eaten for days。 But the worst of it by far was her face。 Someone had taken a knife to it and。。。 Amir jan； the slashes cut this way and that way。 One of the cuts went from cheekbone to hairline and it had not spared her left eye on the way。 It was grotesque。 I patted her brow with a wet cloth and she opened her eyes。 Where is Hassan？ she whispered。
I m right here； Hassan said。 He took her hand and squeezed it。
Her good eye rolled to him。 I have walked long and far to see if you are as beautiful in the flesh as you are in my dreams。 And you are。 Even more。 She pulled his hand to her scarred face。 Smile for me。 Please。
Hassan did and the old woman wept。 You smiled ing out of me； did anyone ever tell you？ And I wouldn t even hold you。 Allah forgive me； I wouldn t even hold you。
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