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Emmett　laughed。　

〃Stop　her；　Edward；〃　Esme　murmured。　〃She'll　be　unhappy　if　she　hurts　him。〃　

But　I　felt　no　pursuit　behind　me。　

〃No！〃　Jacob　was　insisting　at　the　same　time。　〃How　can　you　even　look　at　it　that　way？　She's　just　a　baby；　
for　crying　out　loud！〃　

〃That's　mypointl〃　I　yelled。　

〃You　know　I　don't　think　of　her　that　way！　Do　you　think　Edward　would　have　let　me　live　this　long　if　I　did？　
All　I　want　is　for　her　to　be　safe　and　happy—is　that　so　bad？　So　different　from　what　you　want？〃　He　was　
shouting　right　back　at　me。　

Beyond　words；　I　shrieked　a　growl　at　him。　

〃Amazing；　isn't　she？〃　I　heard　Edward　murmur。　

〃She　hasn't　gone　for　his　throat　even　once；〃　Carlisle　agreed；　sounding　stunned。　

〃Fine；　you　win　this　one；〃　Emmett　said　grudgingly。　

〃You're　going　to　stay　away　from　her；〃　I　hissed　up　at　Jacob。　

〃I　can't　do　that！〃　

Through　my　teeth：　〃Try。　Starting　now〃　

〃It's　not　possible。　Do　you　remember　how　much　you　wanted　me　around　three　days　ago？　How　hard　it　
was　to　be　apart　from　each　other？　That's　gone　for　you　now；　isn't　it？〃　

I　glared；　not　sure　what　he　was　implying。　

〃That　was　her；〃　he　told　me。　〃From　the　very　beginning。　We　had　to　be　together；　even　then。〃　

I　remembered；　and　then　I　understood；　a　tiny　part　of　me　was　relieved　to　have　the　madness　explained。　But　
that　relief　somehow　only　made　me　angrier。　Was　he　expecting　that　to　be　enough　for　me？　That　one　little　
clarification　would　make　me　okay　with　this？　

〃Run　away　while　you　still　can；〃　I　threatened。　



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〃C'mon；Bells！　Nessie　likes　me；　too；〃　he　insisted。　

I　froze。　My　breathing　stopped。　Behind　me；　I　heard　the　lack　of　sound　that　was　their　anxious　reaction。　

〃What。。。did　youcall　her？〃　

Jacob　took　a　step　farther　back；　managing　to　look　sheepish。　〃Well；〃　he　mumbled；　〃that　name　you　came　
up　with　is　kind　of　a　mouthful　and—〃　

〃You　nicknamed　my　daughter　after　the　Loch　Ness　Monster？〃　I　screeched。　

And　then　I　lunged　for　his　throat。　

23。　MEMORIES　

Tm　so　sorry；　Seth。　I　should　have　been　closer。〃　

Edward　was　still　apologizing；　and　I　didn't　think　that　was　either　fair　or　appropriate。　After　all；　Edward　
hadn't　pletely　and　inexcusably　lost　control　of　his　temper。　Edward　hadn't　tried　to　rip　Jacob's　head　off　
—Jacob；　who　wouldn't　even　phase　to　protect　himself—and　then　accidentally　broken　Seth's　shoulder　and　
collarbone　when　he　jumped　in　between。　Edward　hadn't　almost　killed　his　best　friend。　

Not　that　the　best　friend　didn't　have　a　few　things　to　answer　for；　but；　obviously；　nothing　Jacob　had　done　
could　have　mitigated　my　behavior。　

So　shouldn't　　have　been　the　one　apologizing？　I　tried　again。　

〃Seth；　I—〃　

〃Don't　worry　about　it；　Bella；　I'm　totally　fine；〃　Seth　said　at　the　same　time　that　Edward　said；　〃Bella；　love；　
no　one　is　judging　you。　You're　doing　so　well。〃　

They　hadn't　let　me　finish　a　sentence　yet。　

It　only　made　it　worse　that　Edward　was　having　a　difficult　time　keeping　the　smile　off　his　face。　I　knew　that　
Jacob　didn't　deserve　my　overreaction；　but　Edward　seemed　to　find　something　satisfying　in　it。　Maybe　he　
was　just　wishing　that　he　had　the　excuse　of　being　a　newborn　so　that　he　could　do　something　physical　about　
his　irritation　with　Jacob；　too。　

I　tried　to　erase　the　anger　from　my　system　entirely；　but　it　was　hard；　knowing　that　Jacob　was　outside　with　
Renesmee　right　now。　Keeping　her　safe　from　me；　the　crazed　newborn。　

Carlisle　secured　another　piece　of　the　brace　to　Seth's　arm；　and　Seth　winced。　

〃Sorry；　sorry！〃　I　mumbled；　knowing　I'd　never　get　a　fully　articulated　apology　out。　

〃Don't　freak；　Bella；〃　Seth　said；　patting　my　knee　with　his　good　hand　while　Edward　rubbed　my　arm　from　
the　other　side。　

Seth　seemed　to　feel　no　aversion　to　having　me　sit　beside　him　on　the　sofa　as　Carlisle　treated　him。　〃I'll　be　



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back　to　normal　in　half　an　hour；〃　he　continued；　still　patting　my　knee　as　if　oblivious　to　the　cold；　hard　texture　
of　it。　〃Anyone　would　have　done　the　same；　what　with　Jake　and　Ness—〃　He　broke　off　midword　and　
changed　the　subject　quickly。　〃I　mean；　at　least　you　didn't　bite　me　or　anything。　That　would've　sucked。〃　

I　buried　my　face　in　my　hands　and　shuddered　at　the　thought；　at　the　very　real　possibility。　It　could　have　
happened　so　easily。　And　werewolves　didn't　react　to　vampire　venom　the　same　way　humans　did；　they'd　
told　me　only　now。　It　was　poison　to　them。　

〃I'm　a　bad　person。〃　

〃Of　course　you　aren't。　I　should　have—；〃　Edward　started。　

〃Stop　that；〃　I　sighed。　I　didn't　want　him　taking　the　blame　for　this　the　way　he　always　took　everything　on　
himself。　

〃Lucky　thing　Ness—Renesmee's　not　venomous；〃　Seth　said　after　a　second　of　awkward　silence。　'〃Cause　
she　bites　Jake　all　the　time。〃　

My　hands　dropped。　〃She　does？〃　

〃Sure。　Whenever　he　and　Rose　don't　get　dinner　in　her　mouth　fast　enough。　Rose　thinks　it's　pretty　
hilarious。〃　

I　stared　at　him；　shocked；　and　also　feeling　guilty；　because　I　had　to　admit　that　this　pleased　me　a　teensy　bit　
in　a　petulant　way。　

Of　course；　I　already　knew　that　Renesmee　wasn't　venomous。　I　was　the　first　person　she'd　bitten。　I　didn't　
make　this　observation　aloud；　as　I　was　feigning　memory　loss　on　those　recent　events。　

〃Well；　Seth；〃　Carlisle　said；　straightening　up　and　stepping　away　from　us。　〃I　think　that's　as　much　as　I　can　
do。　Try　to　not　move　for；　oh；　a　few　hours；　I　guess。〃　Carlisle　chuckled。　〃I　wish　treating　humans　were　this　
instantaneously　gratifying。〃　He　rested　his　hand　for　a　moment　on　Seth's　black　hair。　〃Stay　still；〃　he　ordered；　
and　then　he　disappeared　upstairs。　I　heard　his　office　door　close；　and　I　wondered　if　they'd　already　
removed　the　evidence　of　my　time　there。　

〃I　can　probably　manage　sitting　still　for　a　while；〃　Seth　agreed　after　Carlisle　was　already　gone；　and　then　he　
yawned　hugely。　Carefully；　making　sure　not　to　tweak　his　shoulder；　Seth　leaned　his　head　against　the　sofa's　
back　and　closed　his　eyes。　Seconds　later；　his　mouth　fell　slack。　

I　frowned　at　his　peaceful　face　for　another　minute。　Like　Jacob；　Seth　seemed　to　have　the　gift　of　falling　
asleep　at　will。　Knowing　I　wouldn't　be　able　to　apologize　again　for　a　while；　I　got　up；　the　motion　didn't　jostle　
the　couch　in　the　slightest。　Everything　physical　was　so　easy。　But　the　rest。。。　

Edward　followed　me　to　the　back　windows　and　took　my　hand。　

Leah　was　pacing　along　the　river；　stopping　every　now　and　then　to　look　at　the　house。　It　was　easy　to　tell　
when　she　was　looking　for　her　brother　and　when　she　was　looking　for　me。　She　alternated　between　anxious　
glances　and　murderous　glares。　

I　could　hear　Jacob　and　Rosalie　outside　on　the　front　steps　bickering　quietly　over　whose　turn　it　was　to　
feed　Renesmee。　Their　relationship　was　as　antagonistic　as　ever；　the　only　thing　they　agreed　on　now　was　



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that　I　should　be　kept　away　from　my　baby　until　I　was　one　hundred　percent　recovered　from　my　temper　
tantrum。　Edward　had　disputed　

their　verdict；　but　I'd　let　it　go。　I　wanted　to　be　sure；　too。　I　was　worried；　though；　that　my　one　hundred　
percent　sure　and　their　one　h